Enlightened

God knows exactly what we need to be humbled and made to depend on Him. This year is turning out to be one of the most challenging years that I have had in my lifetime. I am learning to depend on God for everything, and learning to become content in the places he allows me to dwell. Lately, that place has been a place of extreme transition. I graduated law school in May, took the Bar in July, and have been searching for employment actively for a while now. Technically the search began September 2009. However, as I am still unemployed, I had began to become very discouraged, at a place where I felt abandoned, as if God had left me. I've applied to hundreds of jobs to no avail. I was seriously stressing out over it, mostly because at this point in my life, I felt I should be independent, not having to depend completely on my family for anything. I felt that since I worked so hard, I sowed my seed, and that I should see the benefits of it right away, but as we can all see God had other plans. My current state...waiting. I can either be anxious, stressed, and worrisome, which will show how much im not trusting in God and live miserably while I wait, or I can give all of it to Christ, be content with where He has placed me, and seek Him. There are many things that I thought I would have by now, or just knew I would have really. And the disappointment came from my expectations and plans being completely erased. However, God has written a better plan for me, I just have to be patient and wait for it to unfold. So this is where my place is, being content and finally allowing myself to just be happy and free. Cutting out the negativity for a more positive outlook and trust that it will all work together for me because at the end of the day I am His.

Philippians 4:6-
Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.